Tuesday, January 22, 2019

A Ramble About Gay Conversion Therapy


I was reading an article about conversion therapy tonight. It’s not the first article I’ve read, nor will it likely be the last. I have also seen several videos told from the perspective of people who have been subjected to it. Conversion therapy is the attempt to use psychology to “convert” a person’s homosexual attractions to heterosexual ones. It is mostly practiced by churches and religious institutions and is based on the idea that one’s sexuality is a psychological choice, conscious or unconscious, based on childhood experiences and trauma rather than a difference in brain organization and chemistry. Generally, this type of therapy is a combination of counseling techniques, though there have been reports of psychological manipulation and “guilt-tripping”. This kind of therapy stems from the idea that homosexual attraction itself is morally wrong.

First, before I continue, let’s get the elephant in the room out of the way as this is what it’s always going to come back to. 1 Corinthians 6:9-10 states:

“Or don’t you see that the wrong will not inherit the Kingdom of God, neither prostitutes, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor receiving homosexuals, nor penetrating homosexuals, nor greedy, nor thieves, nor those intoxicated, not abusive people, not those who plunder; they will not inherit the kingdom of God.” (my translation, modified literal)

There are other passages in both the Old and New Testaments which could be drawn from, but this one is representative of the general idea. In the Old Testament, homosexual intercourse was explicitly forbidden in the Mosaic law and punishable by death regardless of whether it was male or female homosexuality. Where this prohibition on pain of death is concerned, I will only say that this was a part of the contract God made with Israel on Sinai as to the rules they were to keep, both civil and sacred, and that St. Paul, along with the author of Hebrews, was explicit in that this contract was superceded and made of no effect once the New Covenant or Contract was put in place through the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ. In other words, as Paul put it, if you are in Christ, you are not under the Law, but under grace. The Torah prohibitions and proscriptions were Israel specific to begin with, and now simply no longer apply because of Jesus Christ. They’re done.

That leaves the New Testament passages.

The understanding of what Paul is saying turns on what he means by “inherit the kingdom of God”. Traditionally, this phrase has been interpreted to mean alternately “be saved” or “enter heaven” depending on one’s denominational theology. But I don’t think that’s necessarily what’s being talked about, and I think you have to understand Paul’s thought processes here to understand what he’s saying.

For St. Paul, as I have written about before, the problem of Hamartia was located in the “flesh”, that is, it is biological in nature (Romans 7). If you look at his description of of the “works of the flesh” in Galatians 5, they all can be attributed to fear, aggression, feeding, and sexual responses governed by the human limbic system. They are all in fact responses seen, not only in human beings, but in other animals in nature. In other words, what he is describing are natural biological responses to stressful stimuli. With these he contrasts what he calls the “fruit of the Spirit” which he sees as something else entirely.

Paul dedicates much of his writing in Romans, Galatians, Ephesians, Philippians, and Colossians to these contrasting concepts. In his writings, he describes the Christian experience as one where the Christian lets go of everything else which could possibly hinder his union with Christ. He describes the Christian as having died with Christ, and everything after that had to be Christ expressing His life through the Christian.

So what does this have to do with “inheriting the kingdom of God”? It is my belief that this phrase is synonymous with “walking in the Spirit” which Paul contrasted with the “works of the flesh” or these natural biological responses. Inheriting the kingdom of God is where one steps back and allows Christ to express through the Christian, His energies working in cooperation with the Christian’s own energies. This requires asking Him, and then internally (and externally if necessary) letting go of one’s personal attachments (as Paul described in Philippians 3), and surrendering the control of oneself to His energies working within. Paul was contrasting when someone presents this way as opposed to presenting with their own natural biological responses. It is how you can consciously gauge whether or not it is He or you who is in control at the moment. St. John described the same phenomenon using different language in his first epistle.

So, what then is Paul saying in this passage? That those who are presenting in this fashion are presenting with their natural biological responses and are not surrendering themselves to His control. It is a similar gauge to what Jesus used when He said, “You will know a tree by its fruit.” It is instructive that in the Galatians passage he also includes things like anger, jealousy, factionalism, discord along with murder, adultery, and sexual immorality when he says those practicing them will not inherit the kingdom of God. Consider how many church members could be convicted of just jealousy and factionalism, yet how many excuse their behaviors which are listed by Paul in the same category as murder and adultery? The passage in 1 Corinthians 6 and the passage in Galatians 5 are giving the same kind of information along with the reminder that if one is presenting in this fashion then they are not cooperating with and surrendering to His energies, or “walking in the Spirit” in that moment. This was something Paul taught consistently in every church he planted and was involved with and those churches he wrote to knew what he was talking about, except for Rome to which he had never been. This was the reason why he went into so much more detail about the mechanics of it between Romans 6-8.

So, Paul is saying that those who practice such things aren’t surrendering to to His energies and are therefore functioning in their own, natural biological responses.

Consider that fact for a moment. Paul’s expectation and teaching was that the whole practice and function of Christians was to surrender themselves, abandon themselves wholly and totally to Jesus Christ, and cutting off from themselves anything, anything, which got in the way of that. Christian practice is, fundamentally, a discipline of denying yourself and surrendering yourself to Him so that He would act, speak, and express through you.

In 1 Corinthians 7, this idea becomes very clear where Paul has to tell the Corinthians, yes, it’s okay for you to marry if you feel the obligation to, and that it was better to get married than to be inflamed (presumably with one’s sex drive which varies from person to person). But just the fact that he felt he had to clarify that it was okay, and his statement in this chapter where he says it is a better practice to remain unmarried if you can help it should demonstrate his mind and teaching on this subject. Being married required that you split your devotion and attachment between Christ and your spouse. In other words, he didn’t want it to become a hindrance to their spiritual practice and the goal of their faith which was, in his words, “the upward call of God in Christ Jesus” (Philippians 3).

Allowing your natural biological stress responses (flight, fight, feeding, sexuality) to dictate your actions is an impediment to union with God through Jesus Christ. One’s natural responses are frequently harmful to oneself but more so to those around you physically, emotionally, and mentally. Furthermore, they engage the Hamartia disorder described in Romans 7, causing guilt, self-justification, and a whole host of ever deepening psychological disorders and further harmful actions as the psyche seeks to defend itself in a downward spiral of destruction. Surrendering yourself and allowing His energies to take over circumvents and short circuits this and brings one into a closer relationship with Him as you get to know Him better.

So, going back to the initial topic of conversion therapy. There is a wealth of medical and psychiatric data which demonstrates that one’s sexual attraction is a combination of factors. Yes, environment and personal experiences may play a part, but there is clear evidence that in many if not most cases there is a real neurological component as well. The brains of homosexual persons tend to resemble their heterosexual counterparts of the opposing sex rather than those of their own sex. A homosexual man’s tends to resemble a heterosexual woman’s, and a homosexual woman’s tends to resemble a heterosexual man’s.

In other words, in many if not most cases, homosexual attraction is as much of a biological response as heterosexual attraction which isn’t going to change regardless of how much counseling the person receives. It’s like trying to counsel the autism or ADHD out of someone. It just isn’t going to happen because that’s how their brains work. It’s a case of the neurology at work affecting the psychology of the individual.

In every article I’ve read, men and women who are genuinely seeking God by faith go into these conversion therapy programs, which range from the mildly psychological to the patently abusive, hoping that these sexual feelings they have will go away. In every article I’ve read on the subject as well, there is a near 100% rate of recidivism. In other words, these programs fail 100% of the time, and leave their participants more confused, angry, and guilt ridden than when they started because their natural sexual attraction happens to be towards their own sex. My understanding is that the suicide rates of those coming out of these programs is relatively high as well.

It is my opinion, but I think perhaps a better course of action would be to simply accept that for some people it is natural for them to have a sexual attraction towards the same sex. This does not make them worse sinners than anyone else. There is no such thing as a “better sinner” or a “worse sinner”. It means their brains work differently from the typical brain and do not need to be corrected by us, just accepted.

Where Christian practice is concerned, I do not see this as working any differently for the biologically homosexual as for the biologically heterosexual. The goal is the same, union with God through Jesus Christ, and the method of getting there, denying oneself and surrendering control and cooperating with His energies instead of allowing for one’s own natural biological responses, is also the same. For the heterosexual, it is expected in Holy Scripture that they are to remain chaste in all ways, ceding control to His energies as opposed to their own biological responses, as they pursue Jesus Christ, and there is no change in expectation for the homosexual either. Marriage at the time of Paul’s writing was not an option for the homosexual. It is in today’s society, at least some of today’s societies anyway.

Regardless, the goal of the faith of Jesus Christ is union with God through Jesus Christ. Jesus Christ is our goal and our means of reaching it, letting everything else go which impedes us from getting there and which impedes us from ceding control to His energies. This does not change based on how our brains operate or how we present biologically, and unrestrained heterosexual behavior is just as much of an impediment as unrestrained homosexual behavior.

Monday, January 7, 2019

New Book

So, for those not aware, I've been working intensively on a rewrite of a fan fiction novel I wrote back in January for a couple of months now with the intention of changing it into an original fantasy fiction novel which I would be able to publish. I finally finished it and put it up on Amazon through their Kindle Direct Publishing site. Here's the Link if you're interested in checking it out (you may need to copy and paste):

https://www.amazon.com/Lightborn-Epic-Fantasy-Tale-Messiah/dp/179293291X/ref=sr_1_2_twi_pap_2?ie=UTF8&qid=1546923975&sr=8-2&keywords=Lightborn

Here is also the Introduction:


The Gospel of Jesus Christ is a well known story to most people in the civilized world. If they have not heard it within the confines of their own church or religious community, then there is a good chance they would have heard it through cinema or television. It is the story of all powerful Divinity taking the humble form of a weak human being in order to heal and rescue the world from its darkness through not only that human being’s life and teachings, but also and especially by means of his brutal death and miraculous self-resurrection. It is the story of human beings misunderstanding who that Divinity truly is, and that Being showing up on their doorstep to set the record straight. It is also a story of that Divinity’s redemptive love and forgiveness for those thought lost to the darkness by those who professed to represent that Divine Being’s will and interests.
It is a story which deserves to be told again and again.
The story you hold in your hand began life as a fan fiction writing set in the world of a popular massively multiplayer online fantasy role playing game (MMORPG). I had first thought of the idea of setting a Gospel story within an epic fantasy world of dwarves, elves, humans, and orcs decades ago and things finally came together about a year ago to where I could put it down into words through the medium of fan fiction. To be honest, I didn’t know how it would be received at first, and thought maybe I would be asking for trouble in posting it. But as it went live on the fan fiction website, it started garnering hundreds, and then thousands of views with heartfelt, emotional reviews by readers, fans of the original game in which world it was set, who didn’t consider themselves religious or spiritual at all. It was then that I realized why.
It wasn’t because of my fabulous turns of phrase or great skills at writing. It is my belief that it was because they were seeing and meeting Jesus in a way that spoke to them apart from the stained glass windows and preacher’s sermons.
After watching this phenomenon and reading their comments for almost a year, I began to wonder if maybe I should try and rework it for a larger audience. The original RPG world of the story in which the fan fiction work was set borrowed heavily from traditional epic medieval fantasy tropes and archetypes which by their very nature as ideas and concepts cannot be copyrighted or trademarked. With this understanding, I began the undertaking of reworking this novel into an original work of fiction apart from the intellectual property of the world in which it was set. All names, origin stories, and material that referred specifically to the copyrighted material found in the fan fiction story world in which it was set have been changed, removed, and rewritten so as not to infringe on the rights or trademarks of the owners of that material.
Here you will not find Roman soldiers, Pharisees, and Tax Collectors. Here you will not even find a “cross” in the traditional sense. Instead, you will find within these pages magic, elves, lycanthropes, a nation of undead zombies, and holy knights devoted to their faith. Here also within these pages you will find a very human man, born of a virgin and called by Divine Light to redeem and save a lost people and a world on the brink of war.
Hopefully, as it is my intent, you will also be able to meet and see the One who is Light that I have come to know in a language and a way that speaks to you.

-Allen Martin Bair